In the beginning ...

There's only so many years one can remain static before something has to change.  No, not a 'snap' - just an increasing restlessness and thoughts that there must be something more ... there must be a better way ... others can do it, so why can't I?

Self talk can be a terrible thing, especially for one with low self esteem and a lack of confidence in their God-given talents and abilities.

Hence the title of my blogspot - If it's going to be, if's up to me - (and a lot of help from above!)

Nothing will change if you don't change.  No-one can do it for you.  Only you can effect the change that you want to see in your life.

And here I am ...

Taking on the enormous challenge of studying so that I can prove to myself that I am capable, just like anyone else.